A little late :)

Yeah I know its already 1 mo into the new year, but I never put this in, so I thought I would...

Better late than never!

Nausea...

Although it's been nearly 5 months since our wreck I still have moments of nausea. I still am constantly reminded of how close we came to losing everything. Whether it be watching an episode of greys where they are picking up bodies off the side of the road from a wreck or just simply driving in the darkness and seeing my headlights bounce off reflector poles, I still have nausea. Just recently I felt sick when during our DAILY conversations about the wreck Kailer says to me, 'Mom you know I wasn't buckled right?' I was astonished and said, 'yes you were honey, because otherwise you would have fallen out of the car.' He said, 'No mom, I put my arms in and buckled the top, but then didn't get the bottom buckled, so that's why my head hit the top of the car when we started rolling. I wasn't done buckling yet.' I literally felt sick to my stomach. What seemed like seconds after I had told him to get back into his seat, most likely was seconds. Now it makes sense to me, why he broke his collar bone. There was so much force on his shoulders and nothing anchoring him to his seat. To think I came so so close to loosing everything just makes me sick. Precious little things I've been blessed to still have in my presence...

9 mo

Seriously can't believe how time is flying. Cannot believe that my baby is growing so fast, at 9 mo he is clapping, waving, saying uhho, and saying momma. He is such a joy and so much fun. I just can't believe how fast he is growing...

xmas vaca

We started the trip off with Price. It was Gpa Holts big 6-0 and I think we managed to pull off the surprise party! It was great to spend a few days with the Holt cousins. They enjoyed eachother. We had a big xmas party complete with a visit from santa and enjoyed playing late night games, taking the kids to see a movie, and just enjoying good food and good company :) The kids reinacted the nativity. It was pretty cute, Kai was a shepherd and Meili, why of course... an angel! So fitting, right!?!Then we spent some time with my family on the front. We spent time at both my sisters houses. We played just dance on the kinnect, we shopping together and had a big new years party. Kai even got to go do some hunting while we were there :)His pheasant feathers :)This is what Meili... I mean Tristan got for xmas. I think she thought it was hers...Not sure who is more excited about it!Made this necklace for my sister, best kind of gifts are the homemade ones :)And in a collaborative effort, made this mission quilt for my brother who just returned. I love giving. There is such a happiness that comes from giving, especially when it's something you put a lot of love into ;)Kai and his awesome homemade jet pack! soooo cool!New years!We played just dance and pictionary all night and Meili made it just before the ball dropped. Kai made it and fell asleep shortly thereafter. I love letting them go as long as they can, until they just can't go anymore. Such a fun night!Party animals :)

xmas at home :)

xmas at home is one of my favorite things. I absolutely love doing our own thing and making our own traditions. I love seeing my kids in their own element and space. This year was no let down. They woke up so excited and I caught some lovely expressions on camera. It was SO fun :) Xmas day is awesome. Thanks to both of our parents we really had a nice xmas :) It was perfect. The before: complete with letters to santa, a plate with milk and cookies and carrots too for the reigndeer :)Prepare for some excited faces...Ha this makes me laugh, he was utterly confused, 'what is with all this chaos???' He was so struggling to process!! But then he perked up :)Yes, the missy got a bike and a scooter... spoi... led...Oh and when you don't have a yard, yes, you ride in the house :)Kids got a lego table and chairs, totally love it!Kai was so awesome building these legos, The box says ages 7-14, he literally did it completely by himself... crazy!

The loot...

So much fun!!!

Feeling Festive!

I love living in vegas and one of the many reasons I do is that there are so many festivities around xmas and halloween. There are so many, in fact, that we just couldn't do them all... We did get a chance to go to the cactus gardens (vegas' temple square) ha, with our dear friends. We followed it up with a great dinner at Marie Callenders... shout out to kids eat free on sat/tues!! Our lovely friends were even so kind to watch our kiddos for us while we went out afterwards. Rich got invited to an ortho doc's house for a xmas party. He had rotated with him and the doc was really fond of Rich. I kid you not, I'm so glad I wore my heels because we pulled up to the gated neighborhood in summerlin and the guy checked us in and said, 'pull ahead Mr. and Mrs. Holt, valet will take your car for you....' Valet? to his house??? Our diaper ridden minivan??? ha. Yes, it was that kind of a neighborhood, it was a 4 million dollar home like I have never been to before. It was catered, prime rib mind you, and it had a full bar! yey for us right!?! ha. He even had his own pianist and DJ that broke out some tunes as it got later. It gave us a glimps into a completely different lifestyle. It was fun to live it for an evening, but as the doc told us that night, as we were complementing him on his beautiful home, 'ah you don't want this, or need this. It's good that you have chosen the specialty that you have.' It was crazy to hear from someone that appeared to 'have it all' that really he didn't and knew better. Unfortunately his ex wife had overdosed and died and his 2 girls were in college. I'm sure his life wasn't easy and at first glance you might have though it was all glamerous. I had a feeling he threw parties at his home just to fill the emptyness. He was such a nice man who really seemed to have a great perspective on life and I really respected and appreciated that. I'm grateful for what I have :)Here's a few pics of temple square... haThe ward party is always a treat and didn't dissapoint, sadly I only got a pic with Mei and santa :(We went with Nate and Sarah to the bellagio to check it out. Sadly we didn't end up getting a pic with them! We love hangin with them, they are such a huge part of our lives here... to say we are going to miss them, would be an understatement...My parents got a chance to come into town, which was so fun! We took the kids to bass pro and they always have fun activities for kiddos during the holidays. It's only the guys' favorite place to be...My parents even brought an apple slicer and the kids made their own dehydrated apple slices. It was a huge hit with them :)xmas shirts!

Kai drew a pic for santa of a ninja, complete with ninja stars and swords...And here's one of meili's, all of her drawings have ears on the head, sometimes they are huge, running off of the paper. This one, not so bad, but still there :)